This is another week that has been a bit weird. Another one that I’ve been kind of in a weird change of mind. Well things are doing fine, but I feel weirdly sensitive to emotional things, it’s like some kind of wall has been breached, I don’t know what this is, but it’s okay I guess it’s just something new to get used to. Maybe it’s some shield or protection that is weakened, I feel like I am built closer to water. It’s really weird. On the other hand my spectrum has always been kind of small, so if I’m happy or sad you don’t really see that much of a difference in me from the outside. Parts of that is masking my real self constantly to fit in with the world. But yeah, rambling like crazy today it seems.

Books

I started the first book in the “Consortium Rebellion” Series by Jessie Mihalik, Polaris rising I really like the way she writes, it’s very not pretentious, but still descriptive in a way, and what I realised this time, it’s over two years ago that I read it now is that the language is pretty milennial coded, and that’s probably what makes it just feel nice for me to read.

Games

I’ve been playing some more mina the hollower but not that much, the difficulty is not quite what I’ve been up for this week, or at least not that kind of difficulty that mina has, I’ll probably return to it later though.

Still have spent some time on Rift of the Necrodancer and I still just really adore this game, it’s so much fun to play, the soundtrack is great, and the beatmaps are still really great, I’ve been playing quite a bit of remix-mode lately, and it’s quite fun as well, always different enough that it’s fun to play known songs.

And I did some picross as well, all in all it’s not really been a big week for playing games for me either. Maybe next week will have more of it, we will have to see.

Misc

I’ve been listening a lot more to “punch me in the face happy” music the last week, and it has been an important way to regulate my emotions well. I’ve not really been listening that much other than when reading for a couple of years, and it kind of came after I stopped watching youtube, which I still don’t really understand. I just didn’t want to any more, and it has kept up going like that. I’ve been watching youtube almost every evening for weeks, and suddenly just had 0 want to do that at all, it’s weird, but I can live with it, since it’s something I don’t really feel like I miss or want at all at the moment.